First time use english to describe my feeling and minds~My english very weak,hope visitors dont mind it~Today no go school,because i go hospital again~Hate it,I hate that place~if me have choice,me dont want go there any more.....Yesterday my hand pain again,actually is my mistake for my younger times...If me no try to play badmiton,me no this problem for now.....After me grew up to while 13 years old,mine home got a computer to let me use,me take it to play games~Sometimes play until no need eat ......and in front computer for 4 hours ago....I know it's my wrong but just now docotr tell me my hand will pain forver...for my life......When i'm listen it ,me unhappy by immediately!why want like that ?Me won't do anything for injured my friends,my parents or another ppl.....Wat wrong about the gods thinking......And wat means call me just can accept cannot reject it......why ?tell me the reason ?why me can't reject this fool?
You know i'm always feel stressfull for my life ,the school homework,my relationship and my stupid hand~Sometimes i wonder to die are the best for me and my parents...because i'm let them agrue for my things..Before at the hospital that times,thats doctor ask me why u like unhappy?No smile before?Me dunno how reply her question?Answer her wat?Because u cannot let my hand unpain again ? I realy duno how reply her.....just no talk so much,at there cry.....can't control myself already....be tough for 9 years ago.....my hand pain long time already....because my neck nerve got problem~Watever....the doctor tell me,You just can accept it,can't reject it.....Wat the hell,for this answer....I'm really feel my life without soul already~
